Learning to Cook in the Time of COVID-19

How is everyone coping with the COVID-19 Shelter In Place thing we have going on? For me, this is basically weekend #2. I'm not actually going stir crazy...yet. I am still able to go into the office during the week. I don't have a loved one at home that I need to care for. But, after work and on the weekends, I'm doing my best to comply with the "Stay At Home" guidelines.

It's kind of a nice time for me to nest a little more. I've been in this apartment for about 2 months now. And, you know my biggest goal is picture hanging... which didn't get done before the shelter-in-place action began. It's not simply the result of my procrastination. 

I've thought about starting to cook a little for myself. I mentioned in one of my earlier posts that cooking can be a breakthrough for someone newly alone. I will tell you I have had a mental block about cooking for a very long time. There are probably lots of reasons for this, and really...they don't matter. I try not to attach a value judgment on my ability (or choice) to cook at home. There have been times in my adult life where I cooked more than others. I was never a consistent cook. But...sometimes I cooked more often than others.

Copper pots I polished not long before COVID

Jordan and I enjoyed eating together, especially at home. It didn't matter if it was takeout or a frozen dinner or a home-cooked meal.  We enjoyed the togetherness of eating it. When I was a child, my mother worked full time and came home and cooked dinner every night. As far as I know, that was what everyone's home life was...dinner at the kitchen table with a meal that the Mom prepared. And not a frozen dinner or some other "calling it in" type of meal. It was always meat and potatoes or rice, and at least one vegetable.  I still don't know how Mom pulled that off...every night...but she did.

When Jordan and I were newly married, our meals were less "planned". We often had spaghetti and a salad or a ravioli casserole and a salad. I was never much for vegetables, so I rarely actually prepared them. Though Jordan did like little peas. So I often warmed a can of LeSeur peas for him. There was a long period in the early years when we ate a lot of Ramen Noodles. Other nights were tuna casserole. Which, was surprisingly tasty. Obviously, the early years were for dinners on a budget.

As we began to earn a little more money, I added pork chops, chicken, and lasagna to the repertoire. We even had a period when I made stir-fried snow peas with almost every meal. I made these with butter and beef bouillion crystals.

Jordan was the one that usually made spaghetti. He also made macaroni and cheese. His favorite was from the box with powdered cheese. I bought the "fancy" kind one time. The kind that had a creamy cheese in a foil packet. it even had fancy shell pasta. As far as Jordan was concerned, that was a macaroni and cheese fail.

I'll be honest, I liked the way Jordan made macaroni too.  He made it so buttery that it was the perfect comfort food.

Somewhere along the way, I stopped cooking. When I would entertain the idea of cooking I was always stuck with the question of what to make. Everything sounded so hard. So complex with so many ingredients. I think I pretty much became intimidated if there were more than five ingredients.

When we downsized into our first Durham apartment, Jordan began to cook for us. That was one of my happiest times. I would come home from work and he would go about making dinner, which was often a Lean Cuisine of a Stouffers dinner. They were usually nice and warm and filling. And he would make it and bring it to me on the couch. We would eat together while watching Jeopardy from the couch. He liked taking care of me and I liked being taken care of.

When Jordan started to get sick, he lost the drive (ability) to make dinner. I often brought something home for us. Usually, I went to yoga after work and drove through for dinner on the way home. On those nights, dinner was at about 8. We still enjoyed eating watching some sort of TV.

His favorite was when we ate at the table in the apartment. He would much rather eat at the table than on the couch. The table was just feet away from the couch, so I didn't really see the point. But it was important to him. He loved it when I would serve us on plates at the table with whatever fast food cuisine I'd purchased. He told me that this meant something to him and thanked me for the time we spent at the table.

It was during that time that I was assessing what was going on with him. He was so sweet and all the little things made him so happy. And dinner at the table was one of those things. So, I began to make that a priority.

Since I was making dinner at the table part of our routine, I started one of those subscriptions to cook from a box. The boxes came once a week with everything you needed for three dinners. This was a nice way for us to enjoy the cooking experience that we never really had before. The box came with finger potatoes with instructions on how to cut them and place them on the pan with garlic and seasoning. --I'd never had finger potatoes before. I didn't even know they were a thing. The box came with an onion to chop or leeks or shallots. Jordan would stand with me in the kitchen as we read the directions and I went about doing whatever it said to do next. The most successful dinner was panko chicken. I don't remember what meal had the finger potatoes, but that was a hit as well. I'm grateful for those times we had in the kitchen.

Fast forward to "now". This new apartment has a big kitchen with a huge kitchen island. It beckons for activity.  Today marks the third weekend that I cooked at home. So far I mostly cook breakfast. It is my favorite meal, so that makes sense. Last weekend I had eggs and sausage on Saturday and cereal on Sunday. I like cereal...so for me, that is a treat.

Last Sunday, while browsing the web, I had a huge desire to make some sort of chocolate treat. I bought a bag of dark chocolate chips a couple of weeks back. I was entertaining the idea of Toll House cookies but hadn't made them yet. So, here was my thought... haystacks. Except for using dark chocolate chips instead of butterscotch chips. Why? Dark chocolate is what I had.  I did not have chow mein noodles (of course), but I had a couple of bags of Chex Mix snacks. And I had several snack-size bags of peanuts. I also had my oatmeal squares cereal and a bag of potato chips. I melted the chocolate chips and began to stir in different snacks to create my makeshift haystacks. For the Chex Mix snacks, I used the Rice Chex and the Corn Chex but did not use Wheat Chex (that doesn't go with chocolate...obviously). I also used pretzels and peanuts. I made stacks out of cereal and also dipped individual potato chips into the chocolate. The results were quite satisfactory. Not culinary genius...but a little innovation to use what I had to create something like what I wanted.

Today I made two pigs in a blanket with Lit'l Smokie Sausages and crescent rolls. And I made cheese rice. I actually like rice for breakfast...so I decided to use my boxed package today. The pigs in a blanket were okay. --I liked the crescent rolls with just butter best. The rice was good. But the morning meal didn't really do it for me. It was okay. Which is acceptable...and another day of me staying in and cooking. So even though I didn't love what I made...I didn't hate it either. And I did enjoy the feeling of being at home.

So there you have it. COVID-19 is helping me to learn to feel at home.

That, and the brownies I just pulled from the oven. Those are knocking my socks off.